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Monday, January 9, 2017

#58 - Throat-Sing and Liryen, Destroyer



It was shelter. It was safe from the storm that was now muffled as the snow built up on the half dome.  But it kept getting smellier all the time with the deer and the horses and the elephants and the people, though there was a stone lined trench for a latrine that lead outside under the hoop wall.  The problem was the sheer quantity that both Didar and Jagunjagun produced, even if it was herbivore dung and there was only so much liquid water to help the feces flow away especially once the weight of snow pinned the flap down and blocked anything from flowing anywhere.

Ologbon and the Cylak spent some time shoveling from inside and then threw ashes over the worst of it.


“If we had enough meltwater we could just spray it away,” Jagunjagun said.  His trunk was curled tight into his muff where he had a dried apple studded with cloves to smell.

Didara, ears folded back tight with her flaps tied firmly under her chin, rocked back and forth the mirrors on her hat and the gems in her tusks glittering in the lanternlight as she moved, eyes closed, distracted.  “Hmm?  What?  Jagunjagun please leave me alone, I’m right in the middle of the precis and I’m trying to express it correctly!”  She thrummed crossly and all across the shelter a dozen people turned to look at her.

Ologbon gazed around at them.  “Look at that!” he said.  “So many foreign iti-igi can hear you when you speak properly!  Women and men both!”

The Cylak captain pulled a blanket up over her shoulders and edged between two of her riding deer and past the knot of warriors.  “You sing?” she asked Ologbon.

“Sing?  No… it is speaking for my partners.”

“Perhaps we should sing for you.”  She turned to her group and with much laughter they arranged themselves in a semi-circle in front of the two elephants.  “We call this throat-sing.  Pass some more time before we sleep.”

**

The black haired girl child is sitting next to the young priest and I.  But her hair isn’t black any longer.  It is the colour of icicles in the night and her eyes are white and her skin.  There are shards of ice in her hair and her eyelashes, clinging to the hair on her skin so she has razor chips glittering at the corners of her mouth and on the tips of her ears.  Her bare hands are bone white and her long, long nails are black and colder than the ice and snow that make her flesh.  I can feel the radiant freeze and when she smiles at me the inside of her mouth is black and her sharp teeth glitter like new fallen snow against that darkness.

I fear her. I love her. I know Her.

“So you can only welcome me as Lover when I am Destruction?  How cold!”  She laughs and her laughter falls from the sky whipped by the howling wind and runs before us.

“Lady…” I try to swallow and it feels as though the saliva in my throat is freezing as it goes down.  “I know You.”

“Not really.  You know the Fire of Destruction.  My Husband is the One who can engulf worlds in his Fires of Rage.  He breaks all of Creation down and when all the fire is leached out it comes to me.  I am the Darkness between Stars and Aeono sheets his Flames through me and yet does not touch the heart of my coldness.”

“I have seen you in my mother’s eyes.”

“Rutaçyen in your world, not Wenhiffar.  She will die of Me, soon and welcome her death.  Her life in your world has been torture.”

“Can’t the other one save her?”

“He will.  He will let her die, as you could not.  And I will cool and sooth the burns your father scorched into her soul.”

I can feel the tears freezing on my cheeks and the water that flowed from my hands become thick slush and then columns of ice flowing from my fingers over the floorboards.  I cannot let Her freeze us all.  “Liryen, Destroyer, thank you.”

“What, for letting another part of Me help you?  Because you asked properly?”

“Yes.”

She stares at me, then flings her deadly laughter in my face and I can feel it sting as my tears crack.  “Good.  You needn’t fear my husband’s heat any longer, child.  See?”

She draws a clear mirror in front of me and in it I can see the young priest’s fires dancing, glittering and frozen.  My scars don’t ache, seeing them, even the brand on my chest.  Her cheeks flush a faint pink and suddenly I’m hard.  I want Her.  “If my sex offends I’m sorry,” I say, terrified.  “But You are beautiful.”

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